Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Audacious Steps

The people of God will be defined by holy audacity:

1. Audacious humility
2. Audacious boldness
3. Audacious love

We must take audacious steps of courage. It's like cliff-jumping or sky-diving. We get the vision of what we are supposed to do, and then we go do it without giving it a chance to sink into the mind of our flesh and activate fear and resistance to it. I pray for you to lay many audacious and clear steps before us and that You would establish the necessary foundations in our souls to be obedient to them Father.

Sunday, July 3, 2011

A Prayer for the True People of God: The Audacity to Never Be Discouraged


I believe that we imperfect and hypocritical people will boldly approach Your throne in the name of Jesus whom You gave for us and I have the audacity to believe that the impossible requirements which You require of us You will fulfill in us by Your grace alone. I believe that You will take Your people, weak and imperfect but they trust You, and place them on the narrow path that few ever find (Mt. 7:13-14), and then You will make that narrow path a wide highway under their feet, so that they would not stumble off of it (Ps. 18:36). Thank You LORD, that You do the impossible and actually perfect people for Your kingdom. Thank You that we have only to endure to the end, because those who do will be perfected and saved. When we can do no else, just let us hold on.

Your boy,


Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Two Great Truths of History: God's Inititiative and Practicality

Two prevalent, but thankfully fading ideas in the church today are ideas along the lines of sheer human initiative and sheer human practicality in getting anywhere (humanism anyone?). Initiative has to do with human decision being supreme and practicality has to do with human effort being supreme. The key words are sheer and supreme, because human decision and effort are out of bounds when they presume to be sheer and supreme. These two assumptions are based on two myths: God does not speak anymore and God does not act anymore (at least not the same way as He did in biblical times).

The two greatest cries of life calling are that God does speak today and God does act today, just as He did in biblical times, yea He speaks and acts through the Scripture in our daily existence. My greatest moments in life were when God went from being the dead God of a "Christian religion" to a living and active God who governs all reality and this happened when God spoke to me and acted around and with me. These are the great calls of my life as a revivalist because when the Church-at-large sees and operates with the God who is alive, and talks and acts with His people right now, spiritual awakening will blanket the whole earth.

Human decision and initiative are involved or else God would not have given these capacities to us in any measure, but these capacities are inherently incomplete without a subordination to and intimate partnership with God's decision and initiative, that is, God's speaking and God's act, and God's Word and God's Spirit. God's decision, speaking and Word are synonymous. And God's initiative, act and Spirit are synonymous. This however, is another deeper discussion for another time.

Monday, May 23, 2011

May We Not Fall

I say to our heart, "Be careful! There is a real place of danger and a real risk of falling from God's kingdom if we abide in lawlessness. We will never have peace except as we remain at peace with Jesus. As it says in the Scriptures, "'They are a people who go astray in their heart, and they have not known my ways.' Therefore I swore in my wrath, 'They shall not enter my rest (Ps. 95:10-11, ESV).'" What a heavy hand of grace and discipline You carry oh God, to corner us into the perfect inheritance which Jesus secured for His people in the cross, resurrection and ascension! Is it not so good of God to corner us so, in such a way that the choice is simple. Either we receive this grace to fully enter into His kingdom and all of its values, or we turn from it and go the way of destruction. And as the scriptures say, "'Not everyone who says to me, "Lord, Lord," will enter the kingdom of heaven, but the one who does the will of my Father who is in heaven. [...]I will declare to them, "I never knew you; depart from me you workers of lawlessness (Matthew 7:21,23 ESV)."'"

We must receive what God says to us now, so that these difficult pronouncements can serve as grace to us, cultivating the pure and clean fear of God in us for our journey towards knowing and being with Him fully in this life. If we do not receive this as a grace now, there's the risk that it will be the pronouncement of God's judgment on us later. Right now is a window of opportunity and grace to respond to God meekly, for He is kind, fair and merciful. Later, His fair judgment will come against all within us which remains wicked that we continue to identify with instead of surrenduring it to death on the cross which Christ calls us to carry like He did. And yet, even when God's judgment comes, it is grace too, for it is hopeful for the great fruit which will come as a result of it. It's only when rebellious people harden their hearts even against God's strict judgment that these words in Matthew 7 become a pronouncement of condemnation for all of those outside of Christ (for in Jesus there is no condemnation). Make no mistake: Now is the time to utterly die to every trace of wickedness and hypocrisy and pretense in our lives. Wickedness will destroy us and this world, if we do not follow Jesus in overcoming wickedness by dying to it and receiving the life of God. Our real identity is in Jesus, so why should we feel offended when He reveals and judges wickedness inside of us that we still identify with? We should thank Him for doing it, even though it hurts for as it says in HEBREWS, He disciplines those He loves.

Monday, May 16, 2011

A Faith of Blood, Sweat and Tears

Endurance is required of the people of God. The knowledge of God that will explode with light and illumination in the earth and the lives of people with dynamic power will only come by faith-a persevering faith with blood, sweat and tears. It will come when the people of God love the Lord their God with all of their existence by faith-that is, with all of their past, present, future, with all of their thinking, with all of their imagination, with all of their emotions, with all of their thoughts, with all of their decisions, with all that they control, and with all that they cannot control. It will come when people, by faith alone in the grace of God, stop being victimized by wickedness and instead overcome it by the power of God through the name of Jesus and by the active power of God's Spirit invading their entire existence. It will come when people, by a persevering faith of blood, sweat and tears, stop being offended by God and instead meekly receive the implanted word of God, instead of exalting their own understanding against God's understanding. It will come when by faith, through grace alone, they truly surrendur all, spirit, soul and body to God's control.

The knowledge of God will explode with power and illumination on this earth, revealing and giving glory to the name of Jesus, the only name under Heaven given by which people can be saved. Will people embrace salvation and freedom or be offended and reject it, becoming victims of wickedness instead? Who of us will have the courage to persevere, with blood, sweat and tears, into the faith and gospel of God, given once and for all through Jesus, choosing to love God with our whole existence, know God with our whole existence and partner with God and His work with all of our existence?

The glory of God WILL blanket the earth. The whole creation GROANS for the revealing of the sons and daughters of God. We are meant to see and know Him for Who He Is. He beckons us to vision of Him and His throne room. He beckons us to fully love Him. He beckons us to partner with Him. His kingdom, power, rule and authority are at hand. He will take possession without our permission. We must put to death everything in our lives that is in opposition to all that He values. If we have a dirty past that we're ashamed of, it's time to dig it up and humbly present it to Him at His altar, for He's a God of grace who will graciously redeem Your past with time if You'll honestly and candidly bring your past too Him. He'll redeem Your past and use it for His glory. You'll go from darkness to light. Your past that hated God will be turned into a past that gives Him glory and loves Him. He redeems the past, encounters you in the present and secures your future if You'll give it to Him of your own free will. It's time to break up your hard heart and prepare for His to give you righteousness.

Monday, May 9, 2011

Spiritual Emphysema

So the craziest thing happened tonight, something very atypical for my times of prayer. I was confused about some things and so I said to the LORD, "LORD, I just need to see something." So I closed my eyes, focused, and in my imagination I saw myself hacking, coughing, and with shortness of breath, having trouble breathing. I was not sure what this could mean, although I know that breathing and breath are related to the Holy Spirit (see the original Greek and notice that spirit and breath come from the same word; they are pictured together). And then the words "spiritual emphysema" came to my mind. I was not sure if I was being random or the LORD was trying to speak to me, but I hopped on the internet to look up first "emphysema" and then "spiritual emphysema." Lo and behold, there are actually people online who write about "spiritual emphysema" and I was amazed at what I found! In short, God has shown me some truth this weekend about myself, that I must confront. Just another everyday encounter, where God is speaking through everything!

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

A Foundation of Investing

Investment of my finances is something I've been interested in for about 4 years and am only now in a position to start looking into. As a result, I've been thinking and praying for a foundational philosophy to govern my investing, which in essence means I want the guidance of God in all my investing.

Here is what I've arrived at so far: God is one day going to shake every man-made system on earth and nothing man-made will last through it. Only the eternal will last. And we can only produce anything eternal through our heart-level faith in the eternal (namely, God Himself). In the long run, a billion American dollars may not mean a hill of beans. In the long-run, right before God finally establishes His kingdom on earth, all transaction in life, including financial transaction will be based on allegiance, either to the antichrist world ruler coming on the scene or to Jesus, the Anointed One of God. The antichrist system will utilize a universal currency that will restrict any dissenters from transaction. The medium of transaction among God's people will be faith and all that proceeds from it. So, the best that I can do for the long term is to have my heart set and in allegiance to Jesus, wholeheartedly.

However, in the short term, I see a lot of wisdom in financial investment, prayer and careful investment. I believe that most of my investment should be in the forward march of God's kingdom, but some of it should be the short term. I must be able to operate in this world as it is right now and build a strong foundation for the days that are coming, where the dollar and about every other currency will be meaningless for those who follow God.

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

When Life feels like Hell

I have a friend who has had it difficult for much of his life and I have watched circumstance after circumstance knock him down over the past couple years that I have known him. I have come to realize that he is likely mad at God. He won't go out and say it or admit it, but it seems obvious to me. I think he's holding a lot of bitterness against God and life in general. So, one can imagine the conversations we have about the difficulties of life and God's involvement (or lack thereof) in them. The problem with my friend's mindset is that He thinks God is responsible for his bad circumstances when actually, many of them are his own doing! I shared with him once the following: "__________, God is not ignoring evil, suffering, and difficulties in your life. He gave the answer to the presence of evil and suffering already. The answer is Jesus. Jesus spent His whole life overcoming and defeating evil in his day-to-day living and then in an ultimate sense in His death and resurrection. In addition, Jesus gave us the way to daily overcome evil and to ultimately overcome evil as well and it is by placing our trust in Him and following His example." In other words, if God has defeated evil, what remains? What remains is for you and I to put our faith in God and His way, and to overcome evil by His power, because He secured the victory. We have the option everyday to overcome the evil around us, or to be overcome by it and this is exactly what is happening to my friend. Instead of overcoming the evil, which he would have the power to do by believing God, he is being overcome by evil. No wonder his circumstances are overwhelming. Again, there are only two choices: overcome evil, or be overcome by evil. The ultimate victory is playing out before our eyes as we follow in Jesus' footsteps because He is the ultimate victor. Instead, my friend chooses to believe that God is responsible for the evil in his life and the resulting misery. I received a bit of profound and simple understanding today pertaining to his situation and it's actually really simple: Just believe that God wants your happiness and in fact, he wants it more than you want it! I may share it with him, because if he can just begin to see that God is not the source of evil, but of good and of happiness, maybe he'll stop blaming God and he'll man up and overcome evil in his life. Holiness, morality and purity are never divorced from happiness or the rest of life or they cease to be! Everything good about God is so full of profound and overwhelming power, joy and dynamic life! God does not just desire us to "be good." He wants our happiness!

Monday, April 4, 2011

Personal Legend and Destiny

God is bringing a brand new expression of Christianity to the earth that is rooted in the ancient; another time, another age. The God of Israel is exalting Himself over all nations once again. The day is coming when the nations will flock to Zion because the wellspring of all life and wisdom resides their and we'll turn to the completed Jews who have received Yeshua as their Messiah and we will ask them to teach us His ways. God is raising up John the Baptist and Elijah like people who will walk in the capacity of the Spirit of God who prepares the way of the LORD. They will prepare the earth and God's Church for Yeshua's second coming. They will preach and proclaim a message that brings DIVISION to the earth, because what they say will be like a sword cutting between spirit and soul, making all things black and white; plain, so that they will be seen for what they are. By the word of God preceding from their mouths, they will raise high the valleys and make low the mountains to prepare a highway for our God and coming king who will arrive on a white horse to conquer the nations and establish the kingdom of God on earth. His name is Yeshua. The demonstration of the word of God through them will divide between the wheat and the chaff, the lamb and goat. Signs and wonders in the heavens above and the earth below are coming, apostles and prophets are being raised up across the earth and a sleeping church is starting to awaken and prepare for a day of reckoning on the earth. A sleeping church will be raised up into God's prevailing and victorious church. The winds of awakening and revival are beginning to blow. The dividing word of God which is coming will bring in great revival and apostasy as it divides between wheat and chaff, making plain who is God's and who is not. Foundations must be established and the message of His imminent coming proclaimed. The Church must return to its apostolic and prophetic foundations (Eph. 2:20). The Church must come to a full embrace of the whole council of God in His Word, eating and consuming the Book He's given us, and embodying us. We must allow the Spirit of God to actively and intimately weave the Word into our DNA. We need to encounter God's Spirit of wisdom and revelation that wisdom and revelation would characterize our spirits as we abide in intimate relationship with Him. We must contend and prepare to receive fresh infilling of His holy Spirit. We must position our hearts before God to receive what His Spirit is saying to us right now. We must be ready for what is coming.

Sunday, March 27, 2011

Not Nathan's Way, God's Way (Only One, Pt. 2)

This has been a years-long epiphany to me and there are so many people I want to shake and wake up with this, but that's something that only the Spirit of God can do. I mentioned a coworker in the previous entry who seems to epitomize many of the attitudes that I see many people in the world carry, but this coworker refuses to see what I'm trying to say. This coworker and another person I once talked with both said the same thing when I started talking about Jesus. Both accused me of self-righteousness and said, "How can your way be the only way?" In addition they added that they believe in God or Jesus in their own way. They have their own way to practice faith. I wanted to slap them awake so bad, not in anger or bitterness to hurt them, but it's like I wanted them to see what they were really saying, because I cannot count the number of times I have explicitly told them that I have no self-righteousness in and of myself, that only Jesus is self-righteous and that "Nathan's way" of practicing faith will lead me to hell just as much as their way of practicing faith will lead them to hell. IT'S NOT ABOUT FINDING OUR OWN WAY TO GOD, PEOPLE. WE CANNOT CREATE A WAY TO GOD. MY GOAL IS NOT TO FIND MY WAY BUT TO PUT "NATHAN'S WAY OF UNDERSTANDING GOD" IN THE GRAVE, NEVER TO RETURN. "NATHAN'S WAY" NEEDS TO DIE. THERE IS ONLY ONE WAY TO GOD AND IT CAN ONLY BE FOUND WHEN ALL OF US PUT OUR SELF-RIGHTEOUSNESS IN THE GRAVE FOREVER AND DIE TO IT SO THAT WE CAN HAVE JESUS' WAY! I do not know how I can say it more explicitly. I just want to trumpet this truth to the world somehow.

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Only One

Sometimes, especially recently, I get tied up in analyzing everything including God. I start to wrestle with and grapple with all the idiosyncracies and inconsistencies of life and become overwhelmed by them. I start to get angry at everyone, including God and especially at myself for being so overly analytical. I get so angery at God for being so big and inconcievable that He does not even seem to make sense. Nothing in the world makes sense. It's in these moments that I begin to see that I'm thinking of life the wrong way.

I started to learn long ago that I'm not supposed to go through life analyzing and figuring everything out. I'm supposed to enjoy my life and enjoy my God intimately. God relates to us in relationship. "When I applied my heart to know wisdom, and to see the business that is done on earth, how neither day nor night do one's eyes see sleep, then I saw all the work of God, that man cannot find out the work that is done under the sun. However much man may toil in seeking, he will not find it out. Even though a wise man claims to know, he cannot find it out" (Eccl. 8:16-17).

Another, but related subject is thus: many of us do think we can figure it out. In fact, I think that all of us are fulled by the delusion that we can figure life and God out. I know that I have repeatedly done that. Man-made religions are our answer to a mysterious God whom we cannot contain, but desperately want to contain. When we believe that, we give ourselves to the ultimate self-righteousness, where we believe that we can just practice "faith" our way or do life our way and get somewhere. As an example, I questioned a coworker about his practice of faith today and he told me what he has always told me: "Nathan, everyone has their own way of practicing faith." And I told him the same thing that I always tell him, "_______, You are right that everyone practices their own way to faith and that is the problem because all of our ways will lead us to eternal separation from God. Nathan's way is going to lead him to hell, just like yours will lead you to hell." And I again pointed to the one way God provided: His own way. Not Nathan's way, not Billy Graham's way, not the evangelical Christian's way, but only one way and that way is Jesus. My opinions about Jesus will not get me to heaven, my practice of religion will not get me to heaven, but only a living and vibrant faith in a Man named Jesus. Jesus is the only Man in history to do it right. Only He can claim true "self-righteousness." And he said that to be in eternal life is to know Him.

This almost brings me full-circle to what I journaled about above, because analyzing God will get me nowhere. I need to return to being in love again. I need to return to having intimate fellowship and transaction with Jesus. He is the only way. As far as how you practice your life, faith and religion, that amounts to a hill of beans to me. But to for me, TO LIVE IS CHRIST. Are you intimate with Jesus, the One in whom God became a person and wore our flesh?

Sunday, March 20, 2011

Great Disruption of Our Lives


I'm so afraid, but You command me not to fear. I come to Your name boldly and with confidence. Show me what it is to overcome and to have the downpayment of that in my soul-mind, will and emotions. I must have your sustenance. Otherwise, I will not stand in the day of the LORD. Where is the patience of Christ? Where is the confidence of Christ? Where are the fruits of righteousness? Where are the fruits of faith? Where is the grace of God? You are good and full of mercy! You are good and full of mercy! You are good and full of mercy! The day of Your wrath comes slowly, for You are slow to anger! Your are patient, that we might repent! Your anger is but for a moment, but Your mercy endures forever. You show Your favor to us and sometimes rebuke. I shall not walk in hopelessness or fear! Father, in the name of Jesus deliver me from a spirit of mockery toward Your coming. Break my agreement with it and fill me with Your Spirit of expectancy, sustained by Your fury and Your joy over me! I do not feel that I can hold on any longer now! What about in that day? You will ultimately disrupt our lives and You will not ask permission. Something in our spirits says, "Our American dream and way of life is the way it ought to be and it cannot be taken from us. It is not right that our comfort and peace and way of life be taken from us. Surely God will not disrupt all that we hold dear and the incredible peace we feel right now."

Father, you have declared war on this selfish mindset that has no root in truth and yet our souls are in agreement with it. Disruption is coming and a new kingdom is coming. It's coming with force. We can either be ready to receive the coming kingdom with open arms, or we can be in denial now and be caught off guard when it breaks in. You have told us that the only worthy work which we can do in this life is to believe on Your Son, Jesus. All of the other emotions, mindsets, choices and actions which we live in based on any other premise are ill-placed in something that is only dust which will be blown away with the coming of God's kingdom by force. Any other work other than the work of believing Jesus and all of who He is as expressed in the Bible (that is, placing faith in it) is a waste of time with no lasting value.

Father, will you sustain our hearts? We do not have what it takes and we are not ready. Can we depend on the great anointing which we believe is coming? Can we depend on Your promise that those who want righteousness will fully mature into it? Can we respond confidently in the fear of the LORD as You intend that we might know only one comfort, the comfort of Your holy Spirit? Any other comfort is a false comfort, a salve and a band-aid that only covers a deep wound which Your Spirit alone can apply healing to. We, Your remnant do not cop-out of this life You have placed us in. We do not turn back in fear. Did Jesus turn back in fear? We do not accuse You of injustice in Your anger. We do not hold offense at Your words, for You are justified in Your words, Your rebukes, and Your judgments. Without holiness, no man shall see the LORD. We come confidently believing that You will fulfill in us what You are requiring of us. We eat the "bitter-tasting scroll." We receive the harsh words of Your prophets and we build our foundation on Your words, with Christ as our Cornerstone. We refuse the temptation of offense, but we will rejoice in righteousness.

Our only hope remains Jesus. Oh, that we would align our thinking with Jesus' thinking (read the Bible), and align the emotions of our heart with Your emotions (praying the Bible and receiving Your emotions what You have revealed through Your Word), and align our choices totally with the choices Jesus made in His relationship with You. May our work, our play, our preparation, our relationships, our obedience, our submission, our thoughts, and our ways of conducting our lives be completely aligned with You. We argue that we cannot do it, but You have vowed that You will do this in the remnant of people who fully commit their hearts to You. You are determined and able and You will do this.

Sunday, January 16, 2011

I'm so thankful for the many people the LORD has blessed me with and the many friends who wished me a happy birthday. People just recognizing and saying those words makes the day so special. I had the chance to do what I wanted to do most on my birthday and be a recluse (after work that day anyway)! Much needed rest was in order and I have enjoyed the opportunity to have it.

I have spent a couple of days this weekend on a "stay-cation", house-sitting for some friends who often call on me to do so, and it was so funny. I was restless, and wondering, what to do this morning after sleeping in. I was having trouble "figuring out" how to rest! I could not pray, I could not enjoy reading my Bible, and I just could not figure out how to get relaxed, so I finally did what rarely ever fails. I went on a run on that heavenly loop of 3 miles with a golf course on one side and a lake on the other. About halfway through the loop, God started speaking to me and giving me a prayer to pray today. I said to God, "You are a genius, LORD. You would not let me relax and just be with you until I stopped trying to be religious. And then, the moment I start running, You start coming to me and speaking, giving me Your thoughts and Your desires!" Running has been a gift from God over the past 7 years. It has not always been so. There was a time that I hated running, but I had always heard that if you keep doing it, you would cross a threshold and it would become refreshing. Running now energizes me. It's an exuberant activity and maybe that is why I connect with God in it; I have always encountered God exuberantly. That may be one of the primary facets of God's character that I have been attracted to for the past decade of relationship with Him. Running puts my mind, my soul and my spirit in a posture where I can hear what God is saying and receive joy and life from Him. The flavor of fullness of life for me and the flavor of encounter with God that has meant the most to me has been "exuberant." Running was exuberant rest today, and the LORD was delighting me so much, that I ran the circle twice (for about 6 miles) to see what else He might say to me.
Anyway, He only said that one thing this morning and it was only about a 5 minute prayer, but it precipitated in my mind to an idea that I may yet act on. It was refreshing.

Why did the LORD do this for me this morning? Why is He so kind? I'm no different than anyone else on earth. I get bored with His Word and prayer. I'm not disciplined about doing them. I have other gods in my life, just like everybody else does. Sometimes its sex, sometimes its food, sometimes its music. Sometimes my god is what other people think of me, or all my friendships. I'm easily a full-throttle hypocrite at times. I mean, I watched a video today about the Song of Solomon today and God is easily the expert on pleasurable and adventurous (or exuberant?) sex if you read that book. But all of my life gets out of kilter when sex becomes my god, and yet I still do it and do not know how to escape (truly working on that one though). But, back to my question-Why is God so kind to me? God is kind because it's His character to be kind. It's who He is. His gentleness and kindness are what draw me in and help me to turn from my sins.

God always meets me in the ways that I least expect. When I try to be religious and do religious things, it's like the presence of God runs away from me. Then, I go out running and all of a sudden the Spirit of God rushes up to me and speaks (and I've done nothing to deserve it). Another good example was when I went out west to hunt antelope with my dad last year. We had planned this trip for 2 years and I felt like God wanted us to do it. So, we went to Kansas City to visit the International House of Prayer first, and then we went hunting out west. After the trip, when we got back to Chicago and prepared to part ways, I had a sense of something that I had not thought of. We were about a half-hour from our split-up point and I realized that I had two days before I had to be back in town for work. I realized that I was not ready to be done yet and I wanted to do something spontaneous, that I rarely get to do. So, when we reached the gas station and split up, with dad driving off, I just stayed there, thinking and praying for about 45 minutes about my options and I finally received a sense of all God wanted me to do for those 2 days. I had thought about going to the inner city of Chicago to minister and hang out with the homeless, but what I felt the LORD had me settle on was this and it was unexpected to me for one of my "religious" mindset: go to Cincinatti and get a motel for 2 nights, and go to King's Island on Saturday. I felt more of the LORD's pleasure and peace on that than on anything else, so that's exactly what I did. I had hours of time to read and pray in that motel room and I had a blast for the day at King's Island. God even came to me and taught me a very important lesson through this sort of sky-diving simulation thing. I journaled about it later and I also found a vision from a journal from 2 years ago revitalized. It was truly spiritual time.

So I have rested and enjoyed my exuberant God this weekend and that leads me to something that I've needed to say and just hadn't thought of until today, since some of my facebook readers will be reading this. There are some of you, though not all that have expressed frustration when people do not talk to them on facebook or online. Some of you are offended and assume a lot of stuff that is not true when people do not talk to you. I'm quite aware of this because I'm one of those people that does not respond to a lot of messages online and I want you to know that the reason is not that I want to ignore you or that I'm angry with you or even indifferent towards you. I just do not do the online communication or chatting thing very often. I'm sure that this may be the case with many others to. I may occasionally say something, but I just do not like communicating online very much. I'd much rather be face-to-face. Nor do I have the time to maintain a huge presence online. Nor am I going to seek to maintain one. This is not a priority for me and I do not think it needs to be a priority for me. I just do not want anyone to take personally my neglect toward online relationships. I believe that I need to focus primarily on those I'm around everyday in my immediate sphere because that is where God has placed me and I simply do not have time for more. I wish I did, but I do not. God has emphasized the need to me to be very careful with my time, to get rest and to be willing to say "No." a little more often, and so I need to do that. I've almost canceled my facebook a few times, but I'm not sure that is what I need to do.

If anyone needs to talk or be in touch, call my phone number. If I cannot talk to right then, leave a message and I'll return your call. This is the easiest way to stay in touch with me.

Until next time,